Confused and Hurt. Just Another Day.

<p>I'm not going to explain the last month I've had. Its too painful to write, and I relive random memories every morning when I wake up.
I'm trying to move on. Trying to forget. Trying to forgive. But when I keep having moments that test my decisions, it makes it hard to carry on. I feel like I don't know what's reality and what's all in my head. It makes me anxious and confused and stressed. Sometimes I would give anything just to know the truth about everything. And sometimes I know it would hurt too bad. And there again there are days when I would like to imagine that nothing happened, and everything is currently ok, and nothing will ever happen again. Its just hurting each and every day. And healing slowly.